Should I cover myself in Indonesia

There is something truly powerful in all that covers. They can make you really invisible, small and not considered. That gives you false illusion of safety. These clothes, they will protect you. Yes, absolutely. But why should you be protected at the first place?

Their dark skin is covered. Scarfs, long jeans, jackets, hats, cheap sunglasses. There is a chasm between me and them. I cannot understand them, they cannot understand me. No matter how hard we try. I am thinking that by wearing my turquoise bikini I am manifesting my freedom, defending every women right to wear whatever their want, without being judged or harassed. They see me as… Actually I do not know how they see me. Most of the times they are too polite to say the true. I can hear them talking behind my back though. Laughing at me in their childishness. They never express their opinion.

The moment I cover my body cause I feel that I should, my confidence slowly dissapears. There is something truly powerful in all that covers. They can make you really invisible, small and not considered. That gives you false illusion of safety. These clothes, they will protect you. Yes, absolutely. But why should you be protected at the first place? Women, they are as strong as men, and nobody should tell them different. They should not be fed with reasons to protect themselves. They should not use their clothes to hide their beauty. Beauty will pass and then.. they will wonder. Was it worth not to feel the wind in my hair, sun kissing my skin, my body soaking into the ocean? Was it worth not to learn who I really am, have my voice heard? Was it worth not enjoying pleasures of this life?

Of course nobody forces them. It is fully their decision. But this decision has been made in this world, in this society, where everybody is one, where one concept is for everybody. Mind which is changed and manipulated, does not make its own decisions, even when it believes it does.

They sit in the shade on a big bamboo bench. I lay on a warm sand, feeling the sun on my skin. I feel free, do they???

 

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